A little bit of Everything...

So, there's a little bit of everything I'd like to say in this post. First, about my new picture....the puppies and me....they are our newest additions: Molly and Max. Molly was supposed to be an early Birthday present for me, and when we went to pick her up, our friend said if we wanted him, too, she'd make us a good deal :) I thought at first, "Nah, Josh will never go for it and I'm not going to push the issue." However, I looked at him with my own puppy dog eyes and after seeing them together and I think his heart melted at that point, he said "If you want both of them, that's fine." Yipee! Now, they're malte-poo's (maltese and poodle mix) so the biggest they'll get is probably a little more or less of 10 lb. They will eat a tenth of what our lab outside eats and they have each other to play with and it's WONDERFUL! Now, neither one of us could imagine one without the other. Molly has officially become "Savannah's dog" so it's a good thing we got Max so I could actually have a birthday present. haha. I think Savannah and Molly will be lifelong friends! Molly loves to be carried, and well, we can't get Savannah to put her down half of the time. They are both doing REALLY well at potty training..thank God!! That was my only reservation about it all. They are doing better than Savannah was and is at times :) SO, that's the scoop on my new babies!!

Secondly, If you read my last post, you know that Reed Putman passed away last night. I CANNOT explain it, but after you go through the loss of a child, you have this bond with other mothers and families who experience it. You so desperately feel for them....a kind of compassion that I have never felt before. I went to Tori's grave today to sign some papers (we still owe a couple thousand on it :( and I of course went to her grave while I was there. I don't know if you looked outside today, but the sky was BEAUTIFUL! The clouds were parting in two from where I was standing at her grave and it was the bluest of blue skies I'd ever seen! It was perfect. I was there for awhile, just thinking and looking and listening to the silence (is that possible??) and how peaceful it all was at that moment. I didn't want to leave. I imagined Tori and Reed singing and praising Jesus together at that very moment. I believe with all of my heart that is the case and one day I will join in with them. I have been a little sad and down today I'll admit....I am getting a cold I think and Reed's passing just hurt me really bad, too. My spirits have been kinda down. But at that moment in the cemetery, I felt peace and contentment. Nothing else mattered. It was really a special moment. I will never forget it. Even after I left, I turned my music off in my car and rode in the silence all the way home. It was nice.

While I was at the office in the cemetery, I asked Brooke, who is a dear sweet lady, about the newest plot in the row right below Tori's. I had noticed the plot was a child's plot, too, and what the story was. She said she had been meaning to tell us, but there was a story behind it. There was a 6 month old baby (same age as Tori) who died from SIDS and when picking a place, Brooke had told them that Tori's spot was a baby that had died, too, and all about her story and what had happened. The mom immediately said we'll take the one right here below hers so they can be beside each other. I was in shock. The mom said to make sure she told us. I thought that was just a really neat and special thing, and Lord willing, maybe we'll both be visiting our daughter's graves at the same time one day and I'll get to meet and talk with her. That's my hopes. Please pray in advance for this to be the case....I have been convicted about not witnessing like I should, and what better opportunity to once again use Tori's life for the Lord's glory??? It gets me excited to say the least!!

Lastlt, Reed's visitation is tomorrow night and the funeral is Wednesday. I don't know if I'll be able to make it to the funeral on Wednesday because I have to work, but I plan on going to the visitation tomorrow night with a friend of mine. This will be the first time that I have been to a funeral home since Tori died or saw a baby in a casket either, so I am a little apprehensive. However, I know that with God's strength I can go and be an encouragement to this family just as so many did for me that I had never even met. I said on my CB page today that God allowed this in my life for a reason and I'm not going to pass any oppotunity up to use it for His glory. Your prayers for their family and my words to say or not say is appreciated.

Thank you prayer warriors. I love you all dearly.